Thursday, November 28, 2024

L'Amore Domina Senza Regole (Love Exists Without Rules)

 



 

It is Thanksgiving Day and I am thinking about seasonality. I often do, when my dog takes me for long walks before sunrise. We walk through the desert heat; we shiver with the first freeze; and, we tell ourselves that sunrise is in a couple of hours. At least I do. For him, it is the daily gratitude of being able to walk long miles and have me at the end of the leash.

It is that gratitude that I have cherished in dogs, and learned from, over the past 45 years, as I have never been without a canine friend during that period of time. And, we have probably walked enough miles to circle the earth more than once. There are few rules during these walks – in fact just one: I follow my dogs. That is what a long leash allows – there is always one who leads and one who follows.

… I grew up learning how seasons dictate what we eat, what we celebrate and what we cherish in those changes. The food on our table was always fresh, never from seasons past kept in await in a freezer or a tin can. We ate lamb only in the spring, beans and tomatoes in the summer, and fish when small fishing boats were able to get out to sea and upon return, sell the fish on the beach. It was glorious simplicity around the Mediterranean when garlic fried in olive oil always made our house a home. And as I grew older, I listened to the advice of accepting my own changes of season, the discoveries they bring, and the limitations they impose on what to expect and do.

It was never a feeling of being cheated; of being restricted or regretful. Perhaps life can be untasty if it were kept in a freezer or a tin can. It had to be lived and celebrated with the moment, in the moment, but only with love. Even in the most difficult times. Even when one feels that there is no sunrise by the end of a long walk, at the end of a leash.

Because there is.

… It is Thanksgiving Day and tables will be full for the lucky ones who can fill their tables. And I thought about our dining room table when I was a kid as I have kept a picture my father took during a holiday more than 60 years ago when my sister and I were about to start lunch under the watchful eye of our mother. Our dining table was simple, but there was plenty of sunshine bathing the room. And always a bottle of red wine for my father to toast in gratitude. Those lunches tasted better than any I have had in restaurants or prepared by street vendor on four continents. And we gave thanks to our mother before every meal. And after.

It is a photo I revisit when I think about what makes a house (in our case growing up, an apartment) a home. The answer is universal and simple – love of the moment. And we felt fulfilled.

And I recited a line from K. Gibran that has stayed with me as I circled and lived around the globe for the past 50 years:

                             Love has no desire than to fulfill itself

 

November 28, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Thursday, November 14, 2024

El Dolor es Una Maravillosa Cerradura /Pain is a Marvelous Deadbolt (Blanca Varela, Peruvian Poet)

 


 



And you shut it tight with a smile. All that remains is the illusion of being complete, piece by piece. Of being attainable.

With time, those pieces become warped and do not fit together again. But you do not un-shut the deadbolt. Rather, you find new pieces to fill the gaps. The cracks. So tight, that no light is seen through.

You fill your red wine glass with white wine. Without regrets. And for all the sunsets you missed, you raise that glass to a name you never met. To the memories of all those without names.

Of that deadbolt you speak rarely. Sometimes you only think about the door it holds tight. The one that was repaired with new parts. The one that does not let light pass through.

And then, one sunrise, you wash your red wine glass with a promise, wipe it dry with scar tissue, and fill it with cold coffee left from a previous sunrise.

And you walk pass the door, the deadbolt still on it. The coffee tastes like the first coffee you brewed in an old land. Or perhaps like the second one. But the wine glass warms your hands.

You are not attainable at that moment. Because it belongs only to you.

And at sunrise, you go to the seaside of a city of steel and concrete, and feed your inner Jonathan Livingston Seagull.



 

November 14, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Wednesday, November 13, 2024

La de Los Ojos Abiertos: Revisiting Alejandra Praznik's work Twenty five Years After my First Reading

 





In the 1990s, I worked with the Argentinean Ministry of Health toward improvements in their healthcare system. At the conclusion of my first visit to Buenos Aires, a colleague who had read my poetry gave me a book entitled “La ùltima Inocencia “as a gift.

“You probably do not know Alejandra Pizarnik’s work” he said, “She is our femme fatale poet. I found the first edition of her book, published in 1956. I think you will like it.”

I read the book during my flight back. One poem stood out entitles “La de los Ojos Abiertos“(The One with Open Eyes) and I read it a few times at 40,000 feet.

This weekend, as I was searching for a book, I came across that copy and many memories of B. Aires kept me away from continuing my search for the initial book. So, I sat down and reread the above poem.

Pizarnik was a lost soul, often lost in her own loneliness and despair about a life she did not figure out how to live. Or why to live through it. And she put an end to it at age 36, but her poetry continued to hold a special place in modern Argentinean poetry. Thirty years after my first reading of “La de los Ojos Abiertos“, I found new meanings to her imagery.  Here are a few lines from that poem and an attempt to translation to English:

 La vida juega en la plaza

Con el ser que nunca fui

(Life plays in the square

With the being that I never was)

 

Mi vida

Mi sola y aterida sangre

percute en el mundo

(My life

My lonely and frozen blood

 Beat in the world)

 

… ... Pizarnik’s “open eyes” is an inverse metaphor; rather, her depression of seeing her life pass without the achievements she wanted would better be described as “eyes shut and chin touching the chest” reading her own tortured entrails. And that thought surprisingly made me think of a photo I took, also in the 1990s on the streets of Taipei, Taiwan. There was a young woman, in front of a Buddhist temple, holding a white umbrella. Perhaps she was leaving the traditional written message for the spirits hoping for an answer. Perhaps she was just there for no reason. And I could not see her eyes.


A few minutes later I wrote my feelings of the moment, in my own way:

 

 

In the shadow of a tree

I found the tree

In solitude

Yet unhurried

 

Under a white umbrella

Her smile

Remained tender

Yet unshared

 

In streets of concrete

A promise was left

To become a poem

Yet unread

 

And the river forgot

That in every flow

The old dance

Loses its foot

 

Unhurried

Unshared

A secret smile

Under a white

 

Umbrella

 

November 3, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

 

Monday, September 30, 2024

The Wall by the Lake

 

 



 

Lingering at the fork

A stony wall

Borrowed my shoes

To let me sleep

 

But I could not

Fearing old dreams

Like a name

Behind a curtain

 

Yet it has been a long while

Since I lost my shoes

At the fork of the road

When I could

 

Not

Reach

The lake

 

September 30, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Monday, September 23, 2024

The Banshees of Inisherin : An Existential Identity Search and a Miniature Donkey

 

I do not watch modern movies. Rather, I prefer to sink in my old leather chair that has adopted the shape of my anatomy and have my 125 pound Akita sleep nearby, and somehow keep one ear up to listen to the B&W movies from the 1930s and 1950s. A time travel perhaps, but like in still photography, a movie in B&W lets me follow the story rather than being distracted by colour.

This changed yesterday when, as I was flipping through the channels, I saw scenery I had seen in Ireland before. Or at least close to it. So I stopped and checked the movie title. It read “The Banshees of Inisherin”. I did not recognise any of these words, so my curiosity kept me on that channel.

It is indeed a 2022 Irish film with Irish actors, in a most beautiful island setting during the end of the Irish Civil War in 1923. The main character Pádraic is a quiet man, who lives in a stone house with his sister, and has a miniature donkey as a pet. He and his sister Siobháome sleep in the same room, in separate beds. The plot revolves around the theme of sadness and loneliness, as Pádraic’s best friend, Colm, decided to reject the friendship and opt for being left alone to pursue his musical inspiration of writing a new violin composition. As such, the plot is simple, revolves around the feelings of three central characters, and explores the darkness of rejection, loneliness and ensuing violence. Indeed, Colm after finishing his new violin piece decides to “punish” Pádraic’s insistence to “be nice” again, by cutting his own left hand fingers and throwing them against Pádraic’s home front door. Unfortunately, the fourth central character, the miniature donkey named Jenny swallows one of Colm’s cut fingers and chokes to death on it.  Pádraic’s revenge is to burn Colm’s home although Colm escapes from the fire.

The plot may be simple, but the acting, the scenery of the island and the dialogue are engaging and breathtaking. A few moments resonated in me intensely, in part because they spoke to my own beliefs and life experience, but also they reminded me of the attitude of Irish friends I have had.  In one instance, Colm responds to Pádraic’s question as to why he sits alone in the pub, drinks his pint of Guinness and is obsessed with the goal of writing his last violin piece.

Colin says that being nice or friendship) may not last “But will I tell ya something that does last?”

“What? And don't say somethin' stupid like music” replies Pádraic.

“Music lasts. And paintings last. And poetry lasts.” states Colm.

 

Simple, yet it touches on universality, identity and purpose. Friendship is an individual need, but continuing the inherited responsibility of transmitting, often without knowing to whom, the panhuman need to have an identity through the arts is a much more worthy pursuit.

And after finishing his violin piece, Colin cuts his left hands fingers so he cannot play the violin again. But he throws these fingers at Pádraic’s house door; Jenny the donkey swallows one finger and chokes to death.

After burying Jenny in his yard, Pádraic goes to confront Colin.

“So, let's just call it quits and agree to go our separate ways, for good this time” Colin proposes

“Your fat fingers killed me little donkey today. So, no, we won't call it quits. We'll call it the start”

“You're jokin' me”

Yeah, no. I'm not jokin' ya. So tomorrow, Sunday, God's day, around 2:00, I'm going to call up to “your house and I'm gonna set fire to it, and hopefully you'll still be inside it. But I won't be checkin' either way. Just be sure and leave your dog outside. I've nothing against that gom. Or you can do whatever's in your power to stop me. To our graves we're taking this. To one of our graves, anyways” Pádraic gives the ultimatum.

 

.. I was delighted to spend 2 hours in my old leather seat, but my dog was not. In many ways, he is my Jenny, and he was hungry for dinner.

After feeding him, I checked the Internet about the movie. Here is a small sample of the recognition it has received:

The film had its world premiere on the 5th of September 2022 at the 79th Venice International Film Festival. It was theatrically released in Ireland, the United Kingdom, and the United States on October 21, 2022. It won four Academy Film Awards as Outstanding Film, Best Actor in Supporting Role, Best Actress in Supporting role, and Best Original Screenplay.

The film was also named one of the Top Ten Films of 2022 by the National Board of Review.  It has since been cited as among the best films of the 2020s and the 21st century so far.

 

But it is said that the film was not as well received in Ireland. Why?

It seems that it is not as much about the film but about the rather subjective definition of “irishness.” Although I have difficulty in fully understanding the argument, there have been suggestions that Martin McDonagh who wrote the script and directed the film does not understand “irishness” since he was born in London and raised by parents from the West of Ireland. Yet, for viewers like me, it is the film that attracts us as a work of art. It explores panhuman concepts of loneliness but recognises the need for personal space promoting creativity. It is dark and joyful, addresses the need for friendship, of being kind while at the same time lets the viewer vagabonding through questions about human nature. I found myself lending my eyes and ears to the movie, but in parallel, ponder on such concepts as “no one is a prophet in his own village” and “the wound is an opening through which light comes in.”

 

.. In the late 1970s I worked in Doha, Qatar as part of a group of multinational team in structuring Primary Care and developing a national health and epidemiology computerised information system. The country had embarked on adopting western models and technologies to healthcare information infrastructure, in parallel to new urban architecture and landscaping developments through expatriate institutions and professionals. The healthcare team comprised of professionals from Australia, Egypt, France, Ireland and Lebanon.

We soon realised that outside of professional work, all socialization was within that circle of expatriates in the desert environment that was new to most of us. And we discovered that many of us were there for a single personal reason – finding a space, for a couple of years, for themselves. It was a self-selected group that sometimes needed a break from their previous lives; sometimes escaped harsh times like civil wars; and, often needed the change of environment to be alone. The desert was perfect for that – in fact, it was an oasis of sorts.

The Irish team consisted of nurses. They worked in the health centers, and their leader, the “Matron”, worked at the Ministry of Health in advising the Ministry about the proper organization of Primary Care nursing. She was a colourful character, always joyful, and extremely competent. It was only after work hours, in social settings that she became what most of the team was – a person with a past who had found her space for a short period of time. Once, she admitted that there was some “lovely pretending” to keep all around her happy. “Pretending is like Cork gin” she put it, “cheap but still great for breakfast!”

Two decades later I received a letter informing me that she was diagnosed with neuroblastoma. “Why the frecken brain?” she asked, “What is wrong with uterine or breast cancer?” She lost her battle after a few months.

I thought about her while watching the movie. And, after almost half a century later, I recalled the first time I saw a report she had sent to the Director of Health at the Qatari Ministry that ended with:

“Eventually Yours”

And as I writing, I smiled remembering what she always said when an international expert was invited to evaluate our team’s goals. Specifically:

“An expert is anyone from another country who wears a tie”

I do not know if that was “irishness” but it was the Irish way I knew. That was being the bon vivant in any environment. In just a few words.

 

PS/ there is a scene where Colm, unable to play his violin after self-mutilation, directs his fellow musicians to play his new work, in the pub. He was done playing his violin – he was done fiddling with his search for a tune that justifies his existence. Interestingly, although he was pleased to create a new musical piece, it did not sound a real departure from traditional Irish music for violin and balladeer. Perhaps when we look for change and new discovery, we sometimes cannot dissociate ourselves from who we are and from our heritage.

 

September 23, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

 

Sunday, September 8, 2024

Struggimento and Euthymia

 



 

I may find again

The promise and the calm

We once thought

As a stormy story

 

It was  an old story

Yet poetry and ordinary

And lonesome walks

In smoky train stations

 

And, like after an August rain

Waves left the mossy rocks

And the beach dried in the sun

Still touching the bluest sea

 

And I found, in that respite,

The promise to walk on unmoon nights

Without leaving shadows behind

And it became my road

 

My way

 

September 8, 2024                  

Saturday, August 17, 2024

Pietro Calvi’s Othello and Memories of Leonard Cohen

 



 

Just before sunrise, when I was walking my dog in a narrow street, I came face to face with Pietro Calvi’s Othello. It was a bit surreal, and I blamed the vision to the weak coffee I had brewed.

But it was real. There it was, outside the house, on the concrete, Othello’s bust that made Calvi famous in 1870. It was homage by Calvi to the African American actor Ira Aldridge, the first Black actor to play Othello in England in 1825.

 

There were ten versions of the marble and bronze bust and I had seen one of them in the Walters Art Museum in Baltimore. Now, I was facing a plaster duplica, left on the ground, in Prescott, Arizona. It was beautifully done though, although the desert weather had taken its toll. But Desdemona’s handkerchief was there, so was the single tear on Othello’s face.

 

I took a quick picture and I move on. My dog did not seem to appreciate Shakespeare interfering with his morning walk.

 

A mile or so in to the walk, somehow, I thought of Leonard Cohen. Perhaps it was the tortured soul of Othello; or the influence L. Cohen’s poetry has had on my youth. It was a fond memory, and I did not mind letting my dog extend his morning promenade longer than usual.

 

… It was 1976 and I was a college student in Montreal. We were francophone then, but L. Cohen was already a rebel troubadour for my generation. I recall going to one of his concerts in Vancouver, even though we did not understand all his words – but we did associate with his persona and outlook.

 

The last time I saw L. Cohen was in 2009, at the Merriweather Post Pavilion in Columbia Maryland. He was an old man now, and it was one of his last concerts. Now his voice had given way to all the wisdom his life had allowed him to keep.

For me, it was like turning the last page of a book, knowing the ending, but still hoping for a surprise.

 

When I came back home and fed my dog, I brewed a stronger pot of coffee and let my experience and feelings of the morning walk find their war in and into words.

 

Here is what came out – not surprisingly Cohenesque lines within that single tear on Othello’s face:

 

  

Life is designed to overthrow you

 

While you write to clear your mind

 

About what can be

 

On blank paper that once was a proud tree

 

 

And it wasn't an offering

 

But was offered, anyhow

 

And your words

 

Looked like a wooden bowl

 

Tasting of honey

 

And your song sounded like a newborn

 

Learning from you

 

About you

 

Knowing he will become you

 

One day

 

After his first heartbreak 

 

 

Life is designed to overthrow you

 

Even when you're at the foothills

 

Of where sunsets burn the clouds

 

To shade names

 

And bathe sad brown eyes

 

In offering

 

 

August 17, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Sunday, July 21, 2024

Promenade

 





Around the bend

 

There were naked trees

Letting the breeze through

Shading their own roots

In snow and

Greeting lonesome souls

 

But I walked by

To follow the road

 

And when I reached the meadows

Where in rocks I once covered

A name I had given

To those I had not yet met

 

I looked back.

The road was following me

 

July 21, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Thursday, July 4, 2024

The “Salmon Syndrome” and Nostalgia: How Silver Bridges Help Us Get Across

 



The summer heat has settled upon Arizona’s desert, and I have to minimize my outdoor activities for a short while. My dog agrees, and takes only two long walks these days – one before sunrise, and another two hours after sunset.

So, this morning I found refuge in thoughts especially about seas and lakes.

The Mediterranean, the bluest of seas, shaped my youth. As an adult I have traveled on and around all the oceans of our planet and countless lakes. Yet, when I think of the Mediterranean, the origin of the Greek words nostos and algos always come to mind. The western combination of these words is nostalgia, translated as “acute homesickness”, or returning home (nostos) and pain (algos).

As a healthcare professional, I spent many years in Italy, especially Bari, Bologna and Ferrara. At the University of Bologna I learned about Giovanni Pascoli, a 19th century poet and homme des letters. His poetry was a celebration of the quotidian, written simply but with a touch of mysticism. One of his poems, title “Mare” (Sea) is a classic.

I had not read that poem for decades, and this morning’s nostalgia lead me to a search for “Mare”. 

I found a lovely literary blog site by Matilda Colarossi, a writer who translates in English classic and modern fiction Italian works. Her translation of Pascoli’s “Mare” is beautifully done and can be found via this link: https://paralleltexts.blog/2022/06/08/giovanni-pascoli-mare-sea/

 Here is the poem, in its original language and the translation to English by Colarossi:

Mare  

Giovanni Pascoli  

M’affaccio alla finestra, e vedo il mare:
vanno le stelle, tremolano l’onde.
Vedo stelle passare, onde passare:
un guizzo chiama, un palpito risponde.  

Ecco sospira l’acqua, alita il vento:
sul mare è apparso un bel ponte d’argento.  

Ponte gettato sui laghi sereni,
per chi dunque sei fatto e dove meni?  

Sea  

Giovanni Pascoli  

I look out my window, I see the sea:
a flitting of stars, a quivering of waves.
I see stars passing, waves passing;
a flicker calls, a throb replies.  

Now the water sighs, the winds exhales:
on the sea a silver bridge appears.  

Bridge thrown over silent lakes,
for whom are you made, where do you lead?    

Translation ©Matilda Colarossi 2022    

 

Celebrating the daily moments many of us take for granted or find ordinary has been the impetus of the expression genres I have pursued in the past half a century. As a photographer, I have looked for stories in streets of four continents, and captured them in B&W. My first book was a novella, and the half a dozen that followed were travel stories about people and places. My poetry was published in anthologies and British medical journals always dealing with people’s attitudes to the basic joys, fears and hopes, no matter their cultural inheritance, language they spoke or history they never forget.

As such, it has always been about “returning home”, the pain of that return never shadowing the joy of each return. It has been about nostalgia, which I have renamed as “The Salmon Syndrome” – we return home to give a chance for the next generations to return home, at their own time, for one last time.

Back to Pascoli’s poem.

The first stanza’s imagery is elegant yet simple.  We all have experienced the waves and stars when near a sea. What breaks that usual scenery is poet’s description of the sea suddenly sighing, winds exhaling and the waters acquiring a human expression. And, there is the mysticism – a silver bridge appears out of that transformation. More, that bridge is not only in or above the sea, but the poet has also seen it over “silent lakes”, bodies of water that perhaps do not sigh, and winds do not exhale. And Pascoli suggests that silver bridges are made for lakes, even when he sees one in the sea.

Those four short lines make us think. Not about the poet, but about ourselves. Where do these bridges lead? Is the sea, home of rivers, also home of lakes? Are those bridges even more transcendent as paths to our own consciousness? Do they make us homesick, be that of a terrestrial or a mystic home?

… And, I recalled a moment in Trento, next to Lago Di Caldonazzo, with a friend. We looked at the calm lake but somehow she thought of bridges too, and used a charming Italian saying to bring her own thoughtful mysticism to the apparent serenity surrounding us:

“Ma, l’aqua cheta la butta giú I ponti” – our best bridges can be destroyed by calm waters.

I wrote about that moment here: https://vahezen.blogspot.com/2023/04/i-muri-hanno-orecchi-ma-aqua-in-bocca.html

 

I am glad it is 102F degrees outside and that my dog is snoring under my desk as I write. It was a refreshing, memories journey back to Bologna and re-reading Pascoli’s “Mare”.

 

PS/ The photo of the bridge is one I took in Paris, over the Seine. The man on the river wall is pensive.  The bridge is not made of silver. And the ducks are listening to the water sigh.

 

July 4, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Saturday, June 15, 2024

And the Moth Remained in the Butterfly

 



 

Metamorphosis. Every artist dreams of transforming a sheep skin, a papyrus, a stone or a petrified drift wood into a story to share. And in the process, to become what she or he always was.

… The heat is back to the desert and I found a cool corner to think, with my dog gently snoring under my desk.

And I recalled how for decades, at medical and public health conferences, I was introduced as a “storyteller” not a man who may have ideas about epidemics and human behaviour. Or human behaviour and epidemics.  In a way, I had become who I always was – one who observes and finds a story to tell. By writing, photography, or mixing colours on whatever I could find to call a canvas.

Telling a story goes beyond reporting, though. It is a search that involves those shaping that story. It is how we transform a casual observation into becoming personal, for each reader or listener. In that sense, an artist is a chemist, mixing substances and elements in search of that transformation into a new one.

Interestingly, the oldest definition of chemistry is “Al Chemia” in Arabic, and the Western term Alchemy derived from it but took on a new meaning vis à vis the scientific patina of chemistry. Alchemy became that search for transforming lead to gold; common materials to precious ones; and, the analysis of the inner flow as secrets rivers run in each one of us.

It became synonymous with the obstinate search of the Philosopher’s Stone, a term cornered by a French bookseller in 1382.

And the world rediscovered the Greek word for changing shape from metamorphoum to metamorphösis and became the Latin equivalent of transformation. Centuries later, using the observation of a moth becoming a butterfly, social and clinical psychoanalysis was born when Jung and Freud found their way to tell a story based on the behaviour of those they observed.

… As a health care professional, I visualised psychoanalysis as a psychiatrist, holding a fishing rod, casting into those inner secrets rivers. A simple image yet a comforting one. Not in that the fisherman was allowed to have access to our secret rivers, but because of the fact that we all have those rivers.

However, and over time, I learned to wonder if those rivers know (or knew) where to flow. If the butterfly still has the moth in it. Hence if we just see a transformation in shape but not in nature and identity. In other words, that we discover the Philosopher’s Stone only when we realise that lead will remain lead even if we can transform its appearance to a shiny yellow.

In a less grandiose way, I came to believe that the Philosopher’s Stone can be bone, metal, cloud or water. That the wisdom we may discover in telling the story of our search, the alchemy of our own intellectual or emotional metamorphosis is in celebrating the heritage of the moth.

… The heat is back to the desert and my dog is snoring under my desk.

 

June 15, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Sunday, June 9, 2024

What You Miss

 



 

When you wipe

Dry eyes

With scar

Tissue

 

Or with

Hands

Of the days

Scorched

 

You do not

See

The smile

Waiting

 

But you

Hear

The

Train

 

June 9, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Saturday, May 25, 2024

Sunset Thoughts

 



 

They say

There are three

Types of secrets

 

Those we hide from

Ourselves

 

Those we hide from

Others

 

And secrets that

Make you

Forget

 

Even when

You still wish

To remember

 

May 25, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Wednesday, May 15, 2024

The place of Distant Visits

 



 

If you think about a place

A thought you never shared

You become that thought

You become that place

 

And if you stay in that place

You become the space

Where no one wants to

Find you

 

But if you stay

As short as a passing thought

The place leaves you

Behind

 

Or holds you tight

If you decide

To share

 

May 15, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024

Sunday, May 5, 2024

Cognitive Dualism in Street Photography

 


“It is about simplicity and dualism, not minimalism.”

It was an email from an old friend with whom I periodically connect to see how we have evolved over the years in our mutual exploration of the arts role in healing.

“And eventually it is that celebration of beauty as our body wrinkles and beauty fills in.”

… More than a decade ago she asked me to read Roger Scruton’s “Beauty: a Very Short Introduction” a book where the renowned philosopher explored what makes an object beautiful in the arts, in people and in nature. And then I read his book “The soul of the World” that helped me understand my own, till then unformulated, quest of expression in photography. It was his concept of “cognitive dualism” that continues to guide my photography, along with appreciation of the arts, in a structured way.

“We have a long way since our biology and chemistry labs” I replied.

“Yes, but we are not there yet, are we?” she noted.” Melpomene and Thalia have shaped both of our philosophies – you look at the world through antique cameras and print in B&W; and I look at suffering through others’ hoping eyes. But we both end up celebrating the beauty we encounter through our explorations.”

… Melpomene and Thalia, the daughters of Zeus represented in the tragedy and comedy masks of ancient Greek theater.  An early form of dualism where the human condition is distilled to two masks, two philosophies of existence.

 

When we ended our email chat, I sat in my rocking chair and recalled some of Scruton’s formulation of cognitive dualism beauty.

The human condition, the theatre masks of ancient Greece, found their way in my thoughts and lead to the concept of cognitive dualism where Scruton proposed that a human is both a physical organism and construct, but also a subjective entity where realities beyond physical sciences find safe harbor. It is a transcendence of sorts between that tangible and the intangible that defines a human and, as my friend said, our relationship with the arts and beauty. Thus, it is not a dualism in the sense of duality, but as a separation of two dimensions that co-exist in us.

And that is why I found the concept of cognitive dualism more than a philosophical formulation, but a guiding blueprint for both the pursuit of expression by an artist, and a necessary attribute in those who interpret the product of the artist.

…At this point, I became curios how, consciously or unconsciously, I had incorporates what I understood as the difference between duality and dualism. So, I took a visit to my prints.

 

A.    The photo atop this essay incorporates my attraction to vintage lenses and the character they give due to the optics technology more than half a century ago. I used a 1950s Zeiss Biotar 58 mm f2.8 focusing on the dogs. The background is delightfully creamy and dreamy, letting the viewer seamlessly go from the tangible to the intangible.


 

B.  The kiss in New York’s Times Square was not posed – I did not know the couple. I just happened to be walking around with my Mamiya 645. Two humans sharing an intimate moment surrounded by other expressions of art.

 




 

C.   The concert poster in Vienna was just a poster until I shapes the environment through curved lines via a Soviet Salyut S camera and the lovely Arsat 30mm lens. Now, it is a conversation in a context that is not realistic. Two generations of women making us wonder about the intangible. The dualism here could be said to be ontological rather than cognitive.

 



D. This early morning discussion was near the Cathedral in Ferrara, Italy. Again captured in medium format, the moment is fluid as two subjective people converse and almost invites us to ear drop.




Always in Ferrara, on a different visit. It was an unreal moment as a man, dressed as a woman, holding a plastic doll, was begging for money. It was apparent that he was a man and the baby was not real, yet a man holding a kid approached to give money. As I was waiting to complete the scene, a young boy walked into my viewfinder frame with a puzzled look: was the man a woman? Was the baby real? It is the joy of street photography to witness such impromptu stories unfold, and lucky if you can press the camera shutter knob to capture that moment.



 

F.    A similar moment from Taipei, Taiwan. This is a night shot without flash (I never use flash, just slow speeds and fast lenses) into a store selling Asian clothing. I was intrigued by the fact that the mannequins looked more western than Asian. Just as I was to take a photo with my 1969 Nikon F, the salesperson walking into the frame. She too looked more western than I expected – almost resembling the mannequins! The photo is one, at least for me, that gives the viewer a temporary sense of direction, context and challenges the expectations we might have had. As such it challenges our cognitive faculties.




 

G.  I wanted to take this photo because of the body language these young lovers displayed on the boardwalk around Baltimore Harbor. It was a moment, a posture, and expectations most humans have experienced. More importantly, the moment was not subjective/personal to this couple, but universal. For that reason and to respect their identity, I blurred their faces by dodging while printing the photo under my darkroom enlarger.



 

H.  Finally, a calm moment in the Baltimore harbor where two military ships took a respite. This photo makes me think of times when we look into our own selves, in stormy days, knowing that we were, like ships, not made for safe harbors. It is that call of discovery that makes any dualism so essential, cognitive or not.



 

 

 

May 5, 2024

© Vahé A. Kazandjian, 2024